A Big Empty Day ...

is looming ahead. I knew the minute I opened my eyes that it was not going to be good...my thoughts were bad ones and that's not a good sign with your first waking moments.
But I'm trying to push things aside and get on a better track. First to get the coffee on and boot up the computer to see what's going on in my 'outside' world. I rely more and more on it to put in my time.
I now belong to two doll groups on Yahoo, so looked at them to see what's going on. Having just been accepted into the second one, I'll have some reading to do in their files for some direction on starting a doll.
My son phoned first thing and sounded more positive. He'd slept in and missed breakfast, but then he never eats breakfast anyway, so that wasn't too much of a hardship. They kept back a carrot muffin for him, but he wasn't impressed with it, hospital cooking, you know...
I'll be doing some errands on Monday so I'll pop in to visit with him for a short while.
My other (middle) son is out hunting again, curses! I cannot fathom why he is out in -20*C (-5*F) weather, in knee high snow, fighting his way through the bush and then dragging some dead thing behind him back to his truck! I'm happy just going to a nice warm mall and picking up some good Saskatchewan beef or a chunk of pig. Is this the 'caveman' syndrome coming out????
I've talked to my oldest son twice in the last week which has been so nice. He seems to be faring alright and getting along with his life.
I think my biggest problem is that I feel that I'm leading the most unproductive life!!! I am not contributing a thing anymore. Who cares if the housework is done or the shopping or all those mundane things that everyone has to do? I am not accomplishing a solitary thing! I feel like I'm just putting in time till they throw me into the wind.
I've just got to do something about it....